Sunday, September 14, 2008
My greatest question ever presented
Ok so I am actually saying this on paper per say. Maybe it is because when written and in front of you, you actually have to deal with it and not just put it to the back of your mind. So I found out that my oldest son is actually smoking pot!! I know the horror of it all right? Ok well, here is my problem... I know it is wrong, so wrong and I know it can lead to bigger and even more wrong drugs. BUT (isn't there always a but??) I am one who smoked pot. Yes i did, I know big shocker for some of you LMFAO!! But I did. And actually I went through that phase of life and I stopped doing it. Maybe it is because I didn't like it to begin with, well actually it was because I never had a hangover until I stopped smoking it. And I actually didn't like having a hangover, therefore more pot smoking LOL. Anyway... ( I so hate the words I digress LOL) So how do I deal with this without being hypocritical?? I did it and he knows I did. I am not one to lie to my children or let them think I am this great perfect mom ( I know I really am LOL but they won't buy it hahahaha) but now that it is in front of me like this I am at a loss for words. I wish some great inspirational words would come to me, but I am not Tommy Houseworth and my mind doesn't work like a writers. I can not let it just go and I have tried to "talk" about it but it seems all I can do is scream and that gets us nowhere because he looks at me like what the hell mom you did it and you turned out ok!! Well I am not so sure about the OK part ;O).... anyway... anyone out there is cyber land have any great ways of dealing with this???